Blog Talkers Talk #67


Be honest …

What is your most important goal in life? Why? (Please elaborate) How do you propose to get there? (Or how did you accomplish it). What sort of sacrifices will (or did) you have to make in order to achieve this goal? Once you’ve accomplished this goal, how will this change your life?

An interesting question with no one clear answer from me.

Depending on the time in my life, my important goals ranged from being married and happy (no, that didn’t happen, thank you very much for asking) or procuring a position that would enable me to have few money worries and let me be creative and happy with my work. (That actually did happen — it just took me 3 decades to find it.) At another point in my life, I was striving for Super Mom-dom — I wanted my daughter to have everything that I didn’t have growing up — and, again, no that didn’t happen either.

You see, I have this obsessive gene in my DNA that in a way sabotages my attempts to do something. I have had to give up many things that I initially enjoyed but ultimately hated because perfectionism would rear it’s ugly head and eat away at me until I would just toss whatever I was doing aside and run in the other direction. Screaming. mad0014

I spent forty years trying to please other people — or maybe a better way to phrase it is, I spent forty years trying to make other people like me. After that forty years ended, so did my marriage and a few years later, so did my totally unsuitable job. The next few years were devoted to raising a teenager, getting her through college, and finding my soulmate and building a life with him and the teenager.

So with all of this in mind, I would say that right now, my most important goal is to do all that I can to make sure that there is peace in my life and eluding the highs and lows that have been trying to take me over all my life. Finally taking care of myself has been long overdue and I’ve been happily just rolling along with no clear cut goal in front of me. Right now, it’s what I really want. I have a Sweet Baboo that loves me very much, we have a home together that is everything I ever wanted, the “teenager” has morphed into a Darling Daughter with a wonderful husband and adorable GrandDolly that I love with all my heart. Life is good. I’m not going to poke at it.


2 thoughts on “Blog Talkers Talk #67

  1. Let me be the first to say this is such an honest assessment. . .I enjoyed reading this post more than you know.
    My faves were the ugly ‘perfectionism’ and that pleasing everyone actually being a plea for their love and affection. So, so true. I think I’m getting it too. . .
    Thanks for sharing.
    Happy week!

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